so.. i’ve just severed the last thing attaching me to my ex-boyfriend. Now, i have nothing at all keeping him in my head. Nothing in the slightest. But now, all i feel is anger. I want to hit him. Again and again and again until i would never have to see his face again. Never be annoyed to the brink of fury by his insufferable voice or arrogance. 

and now. I swear. If he so much as wants to talk to me.. i shall have nothing to say. Nothing in the slightest. I shall be the one in those silly hipster pictures about rejection: because i can’t take it anymore. I shall NOT be kept in his wake. Any form of contact will be dismissed. And if he thinks he can.. BULLY me into becoming one of his bloody pawns.. then he can fuck right off. 

I can’t believe once i felt such love for him. I can now see why people become so separate.. how in these captioned hipster photos, they can talk about once loving and now resenting. I don’t know how such a drastic change can happen.. but it really is like seeing a situation through sunglasses.. and only seeing clearly once they are removed. I am stronger then i was back then; and i am certainly strong enough to say no. He can hate me all he wants, he can tell his friends of what an awful person i really am.. but if his friends can’t see me for who i really am; and not who they are being told, then i don’t want to be their friend either. They should make their own judgement. 

I have my friends. The ones who i know would never leave me. And i honestly don’t know what i would do without them. I love you. You know who you are. Hastings. Cat. Vee. Maggie and Allie.. you all know how much i love you. I’m just glad you’re here.. and that i have you with me. 

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